Monday, June 6, 2011

Dear Baby

To my sweet little Prince or Princess,

I found a poem that is close to summing up my feelings right now.

Before you were conceived,
I wanted you.
Before you were born,
I loved you.
Before you were here an hour,
I would give my life for you.
This is the miracle of life.
-Maureen Hawkins-

There is nothing in this world that brings me more happiness than you do. I have only known about your for less than two months and you have already made the biggest impact on my life than anyone in this world. You are a part of me; you are my blood, you are my heart, you are my soul, you are my child.

My whole life I've dreamt of becoming a mother- from pregnancy to you starting your own family- I've dreamt of you. I've dreamt of what you would look like, what hobbies you would enjoy, the friends you would make, the relationship that we would have, I've dreamt of it all. You aren't even here yet and you have made me the happiest woman in the world. Everything in my life up to this point I have done for you. Now that you are here and now that this is real, no words can describe how I feel.

I want you to know that this was not an easy road to get to, but that is what makes you even more special. Your daddy and I have been through many struggles- long distances and long separations, and we have been waiting for you for a very long time. You are the best gift that God could ever give us and we are so incredibly thankful and blessed that He has given us the chance to become your parents.

I also want you to know that Dad and I will never give up on you. We will always love you with every ounce of our being. We are going to be new parents so we will make mistakes, but your best interest will always be at the forefront of our minds. You already are our whole world and I can not tell you enough how much I love you.

Sometimes there will be nights and days where Daddy can't be here, but know that he is always inside your heart. Also know that he is thinking of you every second of every day and he can not wait to come home and see you again. I will always show you pictures and videos of him, play recordings of him reading you your favorite bedtime stories, and we can even sing Daddy's silly songs. I know the days and nights will seem long without him, but just as Daddy says, another day down another day closer.

If I only had one wish in life it would be that you were always happy. No matter how life turns out you have to have a positive outlook on things. See every obstacle as just a bump in the road and a lesson learned. Know that it is okay to make mistakes, just look back and see what could have been done differently and move on. Know that working hard will always pay off and be kind to the people you meet. But ultimately, no matter what you choose to do or what path you take, I want you to be happy.

Baby, I can not wait for this long, wonderful journey that is ahead of us. As a family we can conquer anything.

I love you so much.



  1. What beautiful thoughts, you made Nana cry.

    Lil Baby Lester will be so loved and so very lucky to have such a loving and caring Mommy and Daddy

  2. You and Jake will be great parents. Love You